Now you see Him, Now you don’t .

In my last post I talked about an old friend HippieBitch, but there is one I forgot to mention. I am going to name him MagicMan, for the reason that one day he will be your best friend and care so much about you, and then the next he could care less and is too busy with his new girl. MagicMan and HippieBitch dated for a couple months, actually I kind of introduced them (biggest mistake of my life), HippieBitch was an angry little dwarf when it came to MagicMan. MM and HB used to spend 24/7 together with no time for anyone else, it sucked because they were both my friends. These two broke up or had a massive fight basically every three days, a week if you were lucky. MM was protective and had a good heart but his head was no where to be found, HB had her head welded on top of her shoulders but no heart. When they broke up for the final time it was a shit show, I kept in touch with MM for a bit before we just dropped each other.

3 months after HB and I stopped talked I got ahold of MM and he had started dating a new girl, who is so irrelevant she’s Unnamed. MM and I started hanging out and we were getting along great as if we had never stopped talking, until Unnamed starting getting into his head saying that I wasn’t trustworthy and I was just going to betray him. I am not saying that I have never made a mistake because trust me I have probably made more then a lot of people combined, but who hasn’t made mistakes? and MM forgave me until she started talking. MM is important to me, but after he started ignoring me and not seeing me anymore I have given up on our friendship until he gets his head on his shoulders again.

I hope he gets back to what he was soon…..fuck you Unnamed.

Highlight.Delete. Restart.

I have come to a conclusion about friends. You don’t need million, or even 2. The ones that stick around, show up for your birthday, and are there for you when you need them for the stupidest things that make you upset are the ones that you keep.

I had a close friend, lets call her HippieBitch. I thought she was my soulmate best friend, but we had barely anything in common. She was the one that liked all black clothes, short, brunette, choker necklaces, dark makeup, and old school rock like J.Hendrix (not that I don’t appreciate some of his music). I was the colourful, tall, blonde, no jewelry, no makeup, and mostly country music (or whatever I was in the mood for). We were the perfect tumblr best friends; opposites that took cute pictures and stayed out until 4am every night. I had the biggest best friend crush on her. She was tough and cool, but i realized she was stuck and keeping me with her. I had planned to go back to my second year of university, but I met her in the summer before and I never left. After a massive fight we stopped talking to each other but that didn’t stop her from talking about me. After a week I became the “hometown whore” all because of the rumours and the secrets she told everyone that I had told her in confidence. I only knew her for a year and I invested to much into our friendship. I wanted to get an apartment with her and travel all over the country and I even tried talking to her about going to school a couple times, but she was stuck working at a children’s jewelry store and never planned on leaving. I wanted to go everywhere and experience everything.

After HippieBitch I opened my eyes to friends that have always been there, and friends I needed to let go of. I lost two good friends I had known for five years, lost a lot of people I spent everyday of the summer with, and a couple more. I realized I have one really good friend that has never left my side even when I am difficult, lets call her MercedesBabe.

You meet people like HippieBitch that ruin your trust and change everything you thought you wanted, and you meet people like MercedesBabe that get excited about you going back to school. My suggestion is, don’t worry about having a million friends cause really only one matters.